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Just so HOW am I supposed to start with this whole about ME thing??? *thinks* awh-gaawd~ screw it. Will just “get-to-point” lets see then. . . . . My friends say I’m an EMO. *rolls eyes* RIGHT. Me. Emo. MAYBE. & some of them say I’m just simply crazily Hyper at times. Well, it’s a better thing right? Rather than being an Emo. But I couldn’t say that I’m NOT an emo. I am. At times. Like COME ON, I bet YOU out there are like this tooooo right???? Emotional it is. & omg don ever start with emotional. I’m just a SOOOOOO freaking emotional person. I can just cry over SILLY things >____< bad thing though. So wait, is EMO & EMOTIONALthe darn thing or what? LOL what-the-hell??? *shifty eyes* Oh-the-wells, what else???? I’m . . . . also a VERY random person. LOL. Sometimes the ‘betches’ don’t get me either. J hur hur hur~~~~ so, just before I end this piece of crap, I shall warn u with little things like. . . . . I’m a VERY VERY VERY hot-tempered girl SO that means, whenever I’m mad or whatever, I whud just rant it all out with LOTS of vulgarity J BEWARE!!! ^^ & IF U DON’T LIKE ME OR WHATEVER IT IS,JUST ANYTHING. FOR EXAMPLE, HOW I WRITE, HOW I “LOOK” HOW I TALK, OR JUST WHATEVER KIND OF SHIT U CAN THINK OF TO HATE BOUT ME, DON READ ME THEN. JUST give yourself a LIFE (if you have any to start with) & GET OUT OFF THIS BLOG then =) just a favor you’re doing for the BOTH of us then ^^ anyways, TILL THEN. Ps:/// this is my blog, so its gonna be about ME ME ME & ME MYSELF (of course, my betches & bastards as well) so just don get bored with all the craps that’s about to be presented to U “reader” or something. XOXO .C.

[ Tuesday, September 30, 2008 ]

NEEDSOMETIME

how do i start?
:(
i've been ABUSED.

yeah~~ *saying sadly*
abused by my MOM.
long fucking story.

something she said reli hurt me though

mom : WITHOUT U WE'RE BETTER OFF ANYWAY! NO DIFFERENCE!

imagine people.
MY LIFE IS FUCKED UP!!!!!!

*bangs on wall*

she fucking ABUSED me on SUNDAY and i went out Yesterday.
ALONE.

which at first i was supposed to LEAVE.
i've packed all my stuff.
no kidding.
i'll upload those shots up soon.
anyway,
i was all ready to go over to Weijun(best fren) place to stay.
but i changed my mind.
thinking it whud be WORST after i get back from my little RUNAWAY trip.
right?
sighs~
plus, bloooody exams are up soon.
so FUCKING SCREWED UP!!!!!!!!!!!!
*hmph*

DEAD

I WISHED

got on a bus to the KELANA LRT STATION and went over to Curve's.

planned to go READ at Borders.
i was REALLY reading alright!!!!
hmph~
till ANOTHER WeiJun called, so yeah.
went to meet and have drinks.
T______________T

I felt so.......FREE when i was in the bus.
sitting alone in an EMPTY bus.
listening to songs on my Mp.
& just stare out.

it felt so good.
like nothing is gonna bother me (unless some fucking pervert comes)
like no one chud stop me.
i could go simply anywhere.

I FELT FREE.

i guess i shud do this MORE often heh?
^__________________^
let my mind go. . . .

went to HOLLY's for drinks with WeiJun

he ordered a Mocha Coffee for moi.

it was raining. . . .
we sat outside....it was so..................
i cant explain.
just so nice.
the feeling.
know?

simply stare at one spot n listen to the rain.
:)
i rurve rurve.

after that, he said he have this amazing place to bring me to..
so i hopped on his car & we went. . . . UPTOWN.
wth.

he wanted and actually thought i DONT KNOW bout this amazing place in UPTOWN but sadly i guess i've ruined his little suprise for me.
LOL.

it was this place in between all these high commercial buildings.
^_____________^

many FAT and dirty KoiFish.

we went to SOOOO MANY places i forgot where.
LOL.

i rmb taking pictures of here.

aint it AMAZING??
so pretty right?
somewhere near my place.
^____^

it was all wet.
we chudn't sit...sighs

after the damn rain & it was fucking hot.
-_____________-
what-the-hell right?
sigh.

pretty view!

i wish there was some colors in my life once in awhile.
know?

it has been so DULL for soooooo many years.
:(

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Jun, if ure reading or maybe not.
sorry for what i said.
that kinda hurt u the other day bout the...relationship thingy.
really i am.
& thank you for wasting ure time yesterday with me.
:)
something i wont forget i guess.

the songs u sang was AWESOME!!! ^____^ *cheers*

taken last year.
when i was with Clayton.
our first date on EyeOnMalaysia
:|
memories~~~~

till then
color my life pls.
XOXO

Wants .

.TSomeone to hug with when she’s cold TA lappy TA DSLR THer lomo cammy TNew cell TA walk-in closet (if possible) THer own purchase of Juicy Couture charm bracelet TA random antique chandelier (black/gold) TA new wardrobe TAll 4 of Twilight’s books TPurchase of a 100 pairs of heels(in 1 month) THer very own business online with her BFF of fashion (M.Ling) THer own collection of Beatles black plate’s TStart off a collection of authentic wine TBreak a leg or arm before she dies TBreak someone’s toe with her heels J