Just so HOW am I supposed to start with this whole about ME thing??? *thinks* awh-gaawd~ screw it. Will just “get-to-point” lets see then. . . . . My friends say I’m an EMO. *rolls eyes* RIGHT. Me. Emo. MAYBE. & some of them say I’m just simply crazily Hyper at times. Well, it’s a better thing right? Rather than being an Emo. But I couldn’t say that I’m NOT an emo. I am. At times. Like COME ON, I bet YOU out there are like this tooooo right???? Emotional it is. & omg don ever start with emotional. I’m just a SOOOOOO freaking emotional person. I can just cry over SILLY things >____< bad thing though. So wait, is EMO & EMOTIONALthe darn thing or what? LOL what-the-hell??? *shifty eyes* Oh-the-wells, what else???? I’m . . . . also a VERY random person. LOL. Sometimes the ‘betches’ don’t get me either. J hur hur hur~~~~ so, just before I end this piece of crap, I shall warn u with little things like. . . . . I’m a VERY VERY VERY hot-tempered girl SO that means, whenever I’m mad or whatever, I whud just rant it all out with LOTS of vulgarity J BEWARE!!! ^^ & IF U DON’T LIKE ME OR WHATEVER IT IS,JUST ANYTHING. FOR EXAMPLE, HOW I WRITE, HOW I “LOOK” HOW I TALK, OR JUST WHATEVER KIND OF SHIT U CAN THINK OF TO HATE BOUT ME, DON READ ME THEN. JUST give yourself a LIFE (if you have any to start with) & GET OUT OFF THIS BLOG then =) just a favor you’re doing for the BOTH of us then ^^ anyways, TILL THEN. Ps:/// this is my blog, so its gonna be about ME ME ME & ME MYSELF (of course, my betches & bastards as well) so just don get bored with all the craps that’s about to be presented to U “reader” or something. XOXO .C.
s.cheng's craps
[ Sunday, October 12, 2008 ]
ITRIEDTONOTRUN
so much hatred in me. so much sorrow. so much things left not said. so much things to do yet i don know how to deal it. so much things i need so much things i LOve so much things to say to people i love so much things i need to fullfill so much things i have runaway from so much things i want to do before i leave there's too many things i need to do.
i want to walk under the rain i want to hug THE one under the rain i want to get high n dance again i want to play under the rain i want to go so many places i want to take a perfect shot i want to be a photographer i want to be the crazy shopper i want to have my own business i want to have my own place where i will be belong to i want to leave the place i am right now i want to watch the sunrise with THE one i want to watch my favourite shows again i want to hug HIM once again i want to get poison & die i want to fly i want to see the rainbow NOW i want to break a hand i want to break a leg i want to lie on the hospital bed & wait for HIM i want to tell U how much i love u all i want to say goodbye to my friends i want to give em hugs i never gave before i want to take a perfect last shot before i die i want to surf i want to eat chocolate all day i want to starve myself & lose 5kg i want to see myself as a new person when i wake up one day i want to. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
i CUTted myself but i'm still alive.
i didn't want to die. i just wanted to feel the pain.
when i'm sunken into my own sorrow's i don feel pain. because i'm already hurt.
cutting myself makes me happy. its a relief. like the painKillers u eat when ure in pain.
i took out my suitcase.
i was prepared.
i packed. i was gonna leave.
if i was gone, i whud miss U. i whud miss ALL of U's.
TILL THEN XOXO
Wants .
.TSomeone to hug with when she’s cold
TA lappy
TA DSLR
THer lomo cammy
TNew cell
TA walk-in closet (if possible)
THer own purchase of Juicy Couture charm bracelet
TA random antique chandelier (black/gold)
TA new wardrobe
TAll 4 of Twilight’s books
TPurchase of a 100 pairs of heels(in 1 month)
THer very own business online with her BFF of fashion (M.Ling)
THer own collection of Beatles black plate’s
TStart off a collection of authentic wine
TBreak a leg or arm before she dies
TBreak someone’s toe with her heels J